My MESSAGE TO you~

Meeting you took me by surprise

That thing about you is I never saw it coming

Now you always gets me wondering

Of thoughts of you I kept on wishing

For a special moments of us are together

How could I now cease myself from feeling this crazy?

When your smile is the best part of my day

When your story is the only thing I wanted to hear every minute passing

And every time you move an inch closer my heart beep so strong

How could I become like this to someone I know so wrong

To someone who’s so clear to me not worthy

To someone who’s with someone else when I am not around

To someone who speaks so true but deep inside all lies

Why would I be like this to someone that can never be mine?

This is giving me so much headache and worry

I wanted to regain my lost self but I can’tI truly can’t as I am too drown of you

I can’t breath anymore without you

You always leaving me no air

I find this world so cruel and unfair

If this is love how could this be so painful?

I am terribly sore and so much hurting

If I could only turn back the hands of time

If only I could avoid the first time I laid my eyes on you

Don’t you know that I would trade anything I have in this world

Just to make sure our path wouldn’t cross at all?

Guess my life wouldn’t be this complicated

Guess my life would have been the way as I planned before

So how am I supposed to wake up each day without this weight in my heart

I’m in so much pain of wanting you and fear of losing sane

But I got to be strong, I got to be firm
Got to use this last drop of strength before I go crazy

I’ve got to do it now while I still can

I hate to say goodbye, I hate to let you go

I hate to forget you but I have to
Because I hate the fact that I love you this true…

Waiting~

After the tiring outstation trip, finally we have done our works at KB. Actually, my flight is schedule at 8.40 p.m depart KB airport to LCCT. So, i reach the KB airport by 7.00 p.m in order for my check in purpose.
















What a beautiful airport~

Since i reach there so early, so i decided to shop around the airport, but it disappointed me. The shops around there are so lousy and most of the shop only sell the junk food(Keropok keping, Maggie, Super Ring... ZZZZzzzzz) . Since there is nothing around the airport, so i decided to take a sit there and surfing net by using WIFI.
















Junk food airport~~ :(

Okie, is around 8.oo P.M, is time for boarding. So, i prepared all my belongings for boarding. Suddenly, my colleague rush to me and told me that the flight is delay~~!!
What!!!? Air Asia flight delay? How long it delay? Half an hour? One hour? One and the half hour? No, no, no, no is 3 hours... What the hell? 3 Hours? Hell yeah, Air Asia delay for 3 hours due to plan break down.

















This is my boarding pass and its shedule at 8.40P.M

At first, i thought my colleague was kidding with me until i saw the screen by myself. OMFG, it's really delay up to 3 hours. The plan is retimed to 11.50 P.M. ZZZZzzzzzzz What the hell, what should i do at the junk food airport for 3 hours?
















Tukar masa to 11.50 P.M... AirAsia go back to sleep

Thanks to Miss xxx xxx xxxx for accompany me during this hard time 3 hours. Finally, thanks to our AirAsia let me have a enjoyable moment at KB airport for so many hours.

Let's us WELCOME the 16/9

Anwar :"The plan is smooth and we are confident we are able to make it"

Badawi: "That's impossible it will happen on 16th of September"

Basically, these are the conversation released by media when asking the top two people in Malaysia. The first one is our opposition leader cum De Factor Leader of Parti Keadilan, Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim. The second one is our beloved Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi. Basically, what you all think about the 16th of Septermber? Did we expected the change of government between the Barisan National to Pakatan Rakyat?

This movement for change is about a crucial transition for the country between Barisan National and Pakatan Rakyat. Existing forces(BN) will try to direct this nation back to the old tested road which would continue to lead the country using the divide and rule method they know best. They still using the divide rule method to seperate between races. Malays get xx%, Chinese get xx%, Indian get xx%, bla bla bla.

We are one big FAMILY. We must fight for all races~

Ahmad Ismail gave us the best and the real example of such politics. For his own political benefits, Ahmad would do what ever for his community. But would Ahmad sell off his nice car and share his accumulated wealth with the less fortunates in his community? Will Ahmad swap his comfortable home for a humble low-cost house in his effort to try to understand how tough life can be at the bottom? (Maybe from 7 Series to Kancil?) If the answer is no, what can the Malay community expect out of Ahmad? Yea, what can Malay expect from him? Donation? Fight for Malays right? ZZZzzz....













Ahmad Ismail's Old Car -----7 Series


















Ahmad Ismail's brand new car -SLK (Small little Kancil)



The movement for change is not about Anwar and his Sep 16 deadline. This movement is about a permanent change we must bring to the country. We can only talk about democracy, fairness and morality if this country recognises a place and the citizens really want to change it.

The politics of race is the pass and now we must focus on multi-racial based because it is too foolish to fight for the particular races only. I did not choose to be a Chinese Malaysian. Ahmad was not born a Malay by choice. In spirituality, you may call it is heaven's design. Scientifically, it is simply a random biological logic. But scientifically and spiritually, humans are all the same. So, we must respect all the races in this country because the choice is not with them.

Friends

A true friend is always there for you
A true friend will help you no matter what's the problem
A true friend is like a sister, she knows your better, than you know yourself
A true friend is someone who knows when you're sad, and can cheer you up when you need it most
A true friend is someone that can make you laugh no matter what they say or do
A true friend is someone who believes in you
A true friend will stick by your side
A true friend is someone you can call just if you need a shoulder to lean on
But most of all a true friend will never leave you

Friends, are important in our life. No matter what happend, friends are always beside you. During my hard time, they advice me, keep on supporting me. Thank you for accompany me to pass the hard time together. Your encouragement and advice have given me a big impact to put her down. Thanks again.

Without you, it's impsobbile i will pass this all alone. Whitout you, i cant imagine what i will be. Whitout you, until now i still cannot let go. Just want to voice my appreciation throughout here, KAM XIA~~

APOLOGIZE~

That it's too late to apologize,
it's too late I said it's too late to apologize,
it's too late
I'd take another chance,
take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat

What i want to tell you i am so sorry for not being a good BF.
Sorry for not appreciate it when we are together.
Sorry for all the things happen between you and me.
Sorry for not giving you a sweet memory when we are together.
Sorry for everthing.

What i learn from this is no matter what you have done, sometimes, there is no turning back point. Once the action have been taken, you must be resposible for what you have done. No matter how hard you regret, it just wont come back. There is no road A or road B cause we are not a person who make decision. There is only one road, which is road A means that we have to accept it no matter in what condition.

No matter how bad the condition, no matter how much we love her, we must face it. Treat it as a GOD given chance to let you see the world clearly, to find a more suitable and better person for you. Apologize is useless, sorry is meaningless, so what's the point for blaming yourself. It's too late, it's too late.

Trying to let go doesn't means you loss everything. Trying to let go is a beautiful arts which enable you to see the world behind which you never see before. There are still many beautiful scenes you never see before, never meet before, so just let go in order to make your world more beautiful. Love someone doesnt means you have to live together with her. If you cannot live together with her, just let her to live happily, to see her sweet smile.

Decide to be happy today, to life with what is yours, your family, your business, your job, your luck, if you cant have what you like, maybe you can like what you have. Just for today, be kind, cheerful, agreeable, responsive, caring, and understanding. Be your best, dress your best, talk softly, and look for the bridge side of things. Praise people for what they do and do not critize them for what they cannot do. If someone does something stupid, forgive and forget.After all, it's just for one day. Who knows, it might turn out to be a nice day.

The third party or a LOVE TRIANGLE

To be in love with someone who is in a primary relationship or marriage with someone else can be the most excruciating and at the same time the most seemingly beautiful experience of your life.

The experience is unforgetable because it is hard to stop or change it. It bring you in a situation that you may not be able to get out for a long time, one you may in fact not want to get out of. Your inability to make the situation into exactly what you want makes you suffer.

The experience is beautiful because the person that you are having the relationship with seems like your perfect, ideal partner — your soulmate. There is a very special connection between the two of you. The attention from your loved one and the way he or she feels about you is deeply satisfying. The bond between the two of you seems magical.

In spite of the beauty and the connection in the relationship, you suffer tremendously. It’s as if you are on a roller coaster ride, up one moment and more in love then you have ever been, down the next and in more despair then you have ever felt.

This is what i felt about one month ago, when my EX-GF break up with me. At first i dont know what was happenning. I though she just angry with be for not be able to fetch her at PUTRA LRT station. I used to persuit her to be together with me, but she rejected me not only once, but few times. Althoght i put lots of efford into in, but i still fail, fail to get her heart back.

So, i begin to suspect that our relationship include the involvement of the third party. Thanks to my EX-GF she told me that she fall in love in that guy(Mr.S). After hearing it, i heart is pain like a knife hit directly into my heart. Is damn fuking pain, no people will understand the feeling. I also did not believe this will happen to me. Althoguh i am not caring enough and i dont know how to sweet talk, but my heart is just towards you, you know that i won't do a things that beyond my limit. But how come you....... I wont blame you, i don't know caring and i don't know sweet talk, that's why you choose others. I will not blame you forever and ever.

But what i can admit is in term of caring and sweet talk, MR.S is better than me a few streets back. However i discover a problem with this guy, he just break up with his GF in 2 days time and he can chase my EX. Radiculous? I think so, but it's just my own opinion and from what i am observed. How come a guy can fall in love to other girl in just days?? WTF is this? By the way, is MR.S is that good till can make my EX-GF fall in love with her? I dont know... and dont want to know. What a luckiest thing in this situation is my GF break up with me before she accept MR.S. Thank you once again for not bluffing me.

One thing i have observed is that this MR.S like to be a Third party. Do you know what is third party in love? Basically, a third party is a person who chase a girl or boy who already have BF or GF. MR.S likes the character too much, i think one day he are be able to take the golden horse awards at Hong Kong. Last time it happen on my friend which MR.S also a third party in a relationship. My friends Miss. M have suffered so much from this problem and i am confident that she is recover slowly. Miss.M also have a BF and MR.S go and "Kiao" other's GF. Izit so fun to be a third party and make others people in dilemma?

Thanks god my friend is recovering slowly from this case and now my turn to "Kena". LOL damn funny, my case is exactly same with her. Mr.S start to chase my EX-GF after breaking up with his existing GF in just 2 days time and congrates to him, he success. 5 years relationship?? What the hell is that, i am talking about MR.S using just few days to get her. Mr.S, i respect you so much.

But from what i believe, a person who destroy a relationship will get what he should. I believed GOD is up there and HE know what u did to all people. A person who like to be a third party will get the punishment he deserved for. So, for u guys or girls out there, dont even try be a third party, cause it lead to LOVE TRIANGLE. It will make the existing BF and GF suffering, and the happiest person is the person who be a third party(In this case MR.S). To those who ever face the same problem with me, you must be strong and brave to live happier than them. We must believed that this kind of people will face their punishment just that the punishment haven come. Thanks god.

P/S: sorry for my poor english, hope you all can understand